so long, fair well...

♥

moments that I treasured the most in my life.
yes. preforming on stage no matter how exhausted I was.
and being lectured for not doing the right things.
the make ups, laughters and sorrows.

sigh. time flies.
it has been 8 months since my final performance.
and I'm missing it terribly!

last time all I thought was if I stop choir.
all I would miss is my friends who grew up with me since I was 11 !
but I was wrong. sigh. the rehearsals and learning-song moments were the best!

I won't be joining back the same gang and choir anymore.
cos Susanna has changed. she's not the TLC music teacher I used to know.
nowadays, making money and using people to build up her reputation only.
:(
I'm so disappointed.
I don't mind joining back. but I'm worried that I won't get back the same feeling I used to have when I was in it.
do you get it?

it will be different.
very different.


p/s: i really wish to join back one day, so I can enjoy life once again. all I do now is studying and learning music lessons by myself. no one is there to share my joy and sorrows anymore. it's just me, and only me.
I'm very depress now. :'(


♥

"five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes,
five hundred twenty five thousand moments so dear,
five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes,
how do you measure, measure a year?
in daylight, in sunsets, in midnight, in cups of coffee,
in inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife "

reminded me of ykls performing this. sigh. which brought me to tears. :(

sinful discovery..

wonderful piece of wood which produced amazing melodies of mine!

although I have to stop touching you.
but I still ♥ you!

I just couldn't allow such wonderful thing to be played by such an untalented person like me.
you sound pretty nice in the strings family.
not solo. especially songs played by me.

would love to continue my journey with you wonderful wood and strings!
but ah, we are not destined you see.
perhaps one day I might bring you out again and feel you.
perhaps tomorrow or later at night?

no, I cannot. the sickening melodies I produced might wake the neighbors.

I decided to choose a larger version of you instead. a famous and the easiest to be played one in your string family. yes a guitar.
to explore and learn something new. to sing and dance with it.
I cannot keep my words that I will never leave the larger version of you.
but I'll try my best from hurting it, like what I did to you.

oh violin, I'm so sorry.
those anticipation and shinning moments with you are no longer there.
I promise I won't give you to someone.
cos you were once my favorite.

I shall never forget you,
cos forgetting is sinful.
oh violin, thank you for spending your time with me and allow me into your world.
I had my best time ever, with you my ♥ !

♥ brings good food !

Had an awesome lunch just few days before SPM with mummy!
to celebrate. cos I've been a good girl. hee.

I thought I HAVE ALWAYS been a good girl mummy? no? :D

where? the curve.
restaurant? Bubba Gump Shrimp.
ordered? seafood shrimp in a bucket, mummy's was some shrimp rice
tasted? AWESOME!! toes licking good. it was really mouth watering!
price? affordable.

I ain't advertising for them. but I seriously recommend you that place.
plus the decorations are cute and pretty creative I would have to say.

me and mummy chose the "kiddy" spot. nah. sila rujukan gambar berikut. :)

cute decorations eh? very the "American-ish" type. *sorry bout the shitty pic, I have a shitty phone. :)*

mummy said "read that! she was my most special friend in my life! who's she to you? me ar? mummy right?"
Samantha said "WAS lar mummy.meaning she's dead or something right? Do I look so pathetic to have a mother as a special friend.. hehe?"

haiyo. I sounded so rude. :( sorry mummy.
your the best mummy and joker in my life. :) *eh, no joke. very serious wan* haha

THEN, they have this special way of ordering food.
when it says Run Forrest Run (the blue one) meaning you haven't make up your mind.
when it says Stop Forrest Stop (the red one) meaning you are ready to order.

till now. I still don't get it. bah. :)

nah. food. doesn't look THAT appetizing like what I said.
cos of my shitty camera. next time should borrow kor's fat gigantic Canon camera, :)



yes. mummy's face is in one of it.
she was supposed to pose with the garlic bread. but she makan it instead. soo... hehe?

thank you mummy for the great lunch!
I ♥ you!

ah my friendss... ♥

♥ ! squeeze me forever. my love. :)


kisses are essential. give me some. please? :)

Disappointment

sighh.. time really flies..

I'm growing older..

what to do after SPM?? :(

I'm gonna take guitar lesson!
yes, and helping out at the pet clinic!

somemore? nomore..

anyway.. i miss caroling so much!!!
why susanna?? what happened to you?
i'm so disappointed that you never bother to call us back..

you shud know all of us are willing to sing again if you take the first step..
we can't take the first step. cos we're not sure which group to join..

you are selfish!! and I thought your the nicest music teacher before.
i was totally wrong.
and I don't like you too tracy..

your gonna be exactly like Susanna when you grow up.
yea EXACTLY!

being famous so what? always underestimate people.
we may not excel at music like you.
but that doesn't mean we're not good at other stuffs...

human beings. so sensitive.
and I hope both of you realize your mistakes.

SPM??

Haiiyooooo!! Thank God my school doesn't offer EST.
so I'm actually stress-free today!
except for Rachel Tey.
she's the ONLY EST student in our school.
BEST OF LUCK RACH!! :x



SO HOW DID FIRST DAY OF SPM WENT?

MOST of my friends chose the first essay ques for section B.
some "usaha2 ibu bapa untuk mewujudkan insan yang modal"
or what so ever.. It went well. i think. :)
but totally glad that is over!
probably won't be writing any BM essays for another 29328491491274 years!! :D

then it was SEJARAH PAPER 1.

urgh. most of my last-minute-doing-exercises actually CAME OUT!
the negeri sembilan poem.. plus the Otto something Von Bismarck German guy face appeared!
but stupid Malayan Union didn't like me! sigh oh well..
hopefully Paper 2 helps to pull up my standard. :)

BM PAPER 2 was urghh.. stupid!
all those targeted komsas didn't come out. except 1.
and I didn't know the story "Tun Beraim something" existed in our syllabus!
and I hardly had enough time to finish the paper.
so was rushing most of the time! argghhh!! :(

SPM DAY 2!

lost confidence few days before for English essay.
cos you know why. :)
wanted to ask Miss Elaine whether I should stick to Factual essay instead of Story or narrative.

"teacher! is it alright to start a FUCKTUAL essay with......"
"HOIII!" says Rachel

"sorry sorry... too nervous"


Thank God I didn't have an oral test for English that day..
those F, shit words probably flow out without me noticing.. aiks. :)

English paper 2 was easy! okkkayy... it was alright.

most of us walked out early. I did too.
cos Sejarah was next. :S

tension I tell you. everyone had their mummy(s) bringing food to them.
my mummy did too!! hehehehe.. CHICKEN RICE!! yum yum. lol

oh yea. wanna thank MISTER DAIVA!! :D
your seminal notes rock!
MOST of them came out. actually I think ALL. :)

yea lar. I memorized the whole damn booklet.

and you know something stupid about sejarah is?

always ask Iktibar kepada bangsa and negara Malaysia!
I wrote the same thing over and over again... damn tiring!
oh. and for structure. I wrote as many answers that I could think of.

especially the undang2 tubuh Johor.
urgh. didn't study that.... :S

I'm refreshing my brain noww. DELETING BM and HISTORY out of my tiny brain..!
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CONGRATULATION!! anda berjaya menghapuskan maklumat document BM dan SEJARAH!
semoga anda berjaya dalam peperiksaan minggu hadapan!!

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overall it was errmm.. okkkaayy...?
i don't get why everyone says EST is easy to score A.
makes me regret for not taking the sub. hate you people! :)

next week : mod maths, moral & add maths.
wish me luck people!!!


good luck to STPM candidates too!
x


hehehehe.. :D

Final before it Starts.

I wanna have a final post before SPM starts.
cos it sounds cool. :)

*screams*
yea. SPM starts tomorrow.
and you bising busy body human being should be wondering why my pretty face is still in front of the pc.
you know whhhyyy??

the pc is addicted to me. heheh. :>

okayy. have to relax myself ma.
after failing to write a marvelous essay.
better stick back to factual horr??
factual essays make smart people like me SMARTER!
oh hell yea it does.
don't get jealous. get jealous of me having SPM lar better still! :P


i know i'm crapping alot. sorry. :(
it's the fear you know. I sorta don't know what can I do now.
sigh.. lets hope that SPM treats me like his best friends.
and promise that I can score well.. yeea??

8 days exams in 3 weeks.
at least I have time in between to restore my peanut brain.
hhehee.. okay lar.

GOOD LUCK SPM AND STPM CANDIDATES!!

make the world a better place by pulling down the standards.
so i score A easily.. heheh.

NAH. don't do that.
just try your best and fart out whatever you've digested in your brain.

okkay?

wish me luck too peeps!
love.

:)

hey guys! was forced to ditch my blog for sometime.
anyway, this is gonna be a boring post.
I decided to spill what I've been suffering ehem i mean feeling these few days. :)

hmm.. I think mister sexy hot little cupid started shooting arrows at everyone!
except me! hmph.
you can call me aunty Thelma now.
cos everyone has been smsing/telling me how they love that person, whatsoever.
don't get me wrong.
I ain't jealous at all!
in fact, i'm pretty happy that you guys told me!! honest yea!
this prove i'm a good fren of yrs. no? :)

sigh.. had so many things to blog lar.
but don't know where to begin.
-.-
prefect annual dinner was awesome!
so did the line dance funk party!
and and rossane's wedding!
final day to school was awesome too!


prefects rock lar I tell you!

nah. talk to this sakai. she'll tell you how rock prefects are! :D

hee! taa!


*bad cough, urgh.*

talented peeps!

hmm. today is the official day that I stop doing gym
cos I realized that I'm too slim and hot! WTH lol

no lar. Bernard (ma dancing instructor) has asthma problem so he has to stop few of his classes.
oh! i go fitness first to dance eh. not to work out and see people's butt bouncing in front of me. :)

I doubt that I'll go to his other classes. too uncomfortable?
i prefer MBf. it's my second home. :D
but now. i have to give up that second home. sigh.

OH! DID YOU KNOW THAT MALAYSIANS ARE VERY TALENTED?

neh. ytd I watched battleground 2009.
I was super duper mighty IMPRESSED with Malaysians.
I tell you. If I can dance half of the way they dance I'm happy already.
there's locking, popping, new jazz, old school hip hop... bla.

I started shouting and clapping my hand like sakai. it was awesome!!
i started dancing in the toilet. hehehe. gila.

and there's this Singing Contest. the Chinese singers who won in Astro thingy competition competed with other countries! and and AND! Malaysian won!
how to not be proud of Malaysian?

sigh. :)

history drives people crazy. i'm almost half way to become crazy.yay!
i need a hug now. :(

when you say you saw me, you were lying.

I feel like a pig now.
cos someone said teens are supposed to sleep for 9 hours maximum.
which does consider ALOT compare to adults.

am I in the childhood category?
cos I slept for 10 hours ytd night. hee!

Imma gonna skip school till spm rings the bell!
cos I can see no point of going back.
All I will do is chating with ma friends and staying back late after recess. =D

Went school on wed. took 1 hour for recess.

had BM workshop. didn't know where everyone was until we climbed to the 4th floor.
came back down. no wait! we asked teacher where were the form 5s. she said 100% not in the auditorium. so we didn't bother checking.

cos there were a note saying *MUET EXAM blablabla*.

in the end. carrying our bags. sweating like a pig.
Deevan saw us and asked us why are we in the library while others are in the AUDITORIUM?

we went "OMG!! THAT THAT THAT!! TORTOISE!!! LIAR!! BITCHHH!" *exaggerating* :)

so we were half an hour late. everyone was starring at us while I waved at them like a princess. :)
sat behind. four of us almost fell asleep. *wasn't boring. it was TOO boring*

decided to do chemistry. it rocks eh!! *half of the answers we did were wrong!* =.="
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I accidentally tore my sejarah text book.
that's for being too "hardworking".

am proud and happy for attending the seminar ytd!

it really helps!

yay!

toodles!
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HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY!!!
to cousin Aaron!! you are the cheerful-est cousin I ever have!!

now go enjoy yourself and be a good grown up boy. i mean guy. :D